Introduction

A doctor’s new life as a patient

What would you do if your life changed in an instant?

I never thought I would ever share a single word on the internet.
BUT…
I’ve learned so much from what happened to me, and I share it now because maybe others, too, will find ideas or answers here when life brings them to their lowest point.

Change does not happen overnight, though. It takes a lot of patience and time.

Sunlit forest – symbol of change and a new beginning
Light always finds its way – a new beginning.

Right now, I’m busier than ever — though you might not believe it — yet I spend my time only on things I truly enjoy.

Briefly, what happened to me

All my life, I tried to help others as a family doctor.
And then…
In a single moment, everything changed.

Red an white rose on an old tree symbolize the change in the life
One moment can change

everything.

I ended up in the hospital with a heart attack. During the weeks of treatment, I realized I could never continue my work the same way as before.

The big question was: what should I do? I was not old enough for retirement — I had to wait another year. Hard decisions followed. In the end, I managed to keep my practice running with temporary substitutes, until one of my them moved abroad. Then I had to return to work myself, at least part-time.

I found it increasingly difficult to cope. Burnout took over me more and more each day; constant exhaustion drained me. I knew it was becoming too much to handle.

To make things even harder, after a long illness my husband passed away. That was when I truly wanted to hide away from the whole world — from everything and everyone.

So, I moved to our country house. I’ve been living here alone for almost two years now — but never lonely.

Flowers in front of an old door symbolize a new chance
A door can be

a new chance.

Now the time has come to reconnect with people again.

On this site, I share all I have learned about healing, courage, and starting over. If even one sentence gives you strength too, then it’s all been worth it.

A magnolia flower symbolize the opening up to the world again
Opening up to the world again

Feel free to look around! You’ll find stories, music, experiences, ideas — and perhaps a little piece of me too: a doctor who now heals herself. And I will be happy if that can help someone else too.

Welcome to my world!